WGMG: my car and mrs v4's car both decide to uncharacteristically fail in the same week. For two things that are always reliable, it is just an annoying coincidence they both decide to stuff up at the same time!

Wgmg : going to work Wednesday  but end up turning around to go to hospital . I was in excruciating pain. They  test me to see if i had  a twisted  testicle.  Nope. Just a severe infection.  Given endone for pain
It feels like someone is constantly kicking me in the groin.  Not  fun

WGMG: When people wont let their dog defecate because they dont care/dont have a bag and the poor things trying to shit but its getting dragged along

:( How does that even happen?

Ive had a history  of  uti's . Its rare  for guys to get but the men who  cop it ,cop it constantly.  This time it was the worse.  I took endone the day after for paim relief and it made me woozy like all hell. Couldn't  move . Folded the clothes  in the morning  fell asleep . Ate lunch  at 3. Got to see a urologist  friday

WGMG: Doctor's appointment today to discuss anti-depressants/anti-anxiety medication.

Even if this works, it'll still fuck my body and mind up in other ways.

Self-fulfilling prophecy. You're fine mate, go to a gym, eat healthy and meditate. Also look up Jordan B. Peterson on YouTube 

When you're having panic attacks in supermarkets and spending entire days thinking about offing yourself, you're not "fine".

Yep

Need the cause flushed out, not pretending it will go away 

Drugs may get the short-term under control but thats all they're good for.

I'm praying for you 

Thanks. It's all just too much right now. Because I've finally started to realise what's causing all of my stress, anxiety, anger and depression, all of my old wounds from my early years have been reopened and it's just absolute hell.

Also I think I've scared off a friend by telling her about part of my fucked up past.

😔

WGMG: clinically diagnosed with depression. Had a close friend commit suicide. The only person I could speak to became my ex. Received a written warning at work (not for lack of trying, long story). My cousins decided to essentially stop interacting with me because of my depression and became the 'community outcast'. Writing gave me an outlet, but lost the will to do that, and my macbook decided to die on me so all that I have written is now lost. 

Tricky one that.  People react, sometimes without realising why.
She'll be back at some point and It'll be better for it.
If not, that's also best in the long run, just hard.

Bottom line, truth wins.

WGMG: Hurt my ankle in a tackle that really should have been more harshly dealt with on the weekend. Haven't broken any bones and am waiting impatiently for the swelling to go down so it can be determined if there is any ligament damage. I'm not a fan of having to work from home immobilised. 

She assured me that I didn't scare her or anything and that if I need to vent, she's there. I just can't be sure.

I know the feeling I've had the offing myself thoughts too. It does not make the problems or pain go away, it eliminates any chance of things getting better.  It may not seem like anyone cares, but people do, the hard part is finding those people. 

You have people on this forum and i know that counts for little when you want that direct contact, but i promise, you are never alone. My life is hell right now. i know everything you are feeling.

I've reached out to a lot of people online (online buddies and through anonymous posts), but it doesn't matter how much sympathy I get or how many virtual hugs people send to me; in the real world people just plain don't give a shit about me. I could drop out of school and move to a different state right now and no one would even notice, let alone care. I open up to people, I scare them off. I try to put myself out there, it doesn't work because people in and out of school forged their friendship groups years ago. It's like a survival technique, you don't let people from other "tribes" into yours. I'm sick of receiving a whole bunch of internet hugs when I don't even know what a real one feels like.

After several years of talking to therapists, all I've got is "try to figure out what's really bothering you and how you can fix it" or "meditate lol :^)". I know why I'm fucked up, and it's the extent of the trauma and the lack of genuine solutions that drags me down further. Meditation and exercise has a minimal impact on my anxiety and does nothing for my depression.

All of this resonates with me. Read my WGMG post a few posts up. Not in exactly the words you put it, but its similar. 

So, this is my proposal...if you want to give me a chance, then by all means I will be here, private message me. If you feel otherwise, then I will still be here, but nothing will change unless you take the first choice. I'm sorry if that sounds blunt, but I know this pain all too well, and I hate to see others go through it. 

https://www.youtube.com/user/JordanPetersonVideos

Also:

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=alan+watts

If its Trauma then your best bet is EMDR

emdraa.org

Start lifting weights m8, it really does help trust me bro :)

WGMG: NEIGHBOURS

we have two neighbours that back on to the side of our house, both have dogs, a Chihuahua and a husky... they bark at each other in the corner that adjoins our fence however the husky jumps on our colourbond fence and has crumpled it.
Along with this, the husky owners appear to be away large chunks of time (6 days so far this week) my wife has seen them once and me never.
Three husky tends to bound on the fences from about 5am til about 12am barking and howling, we have had to put up a chicken wire fence so our dog won't go near the fence as he goes crazy once the husky tries to attack through the fence. 

Its doing my head in... cant get ahold of the husky owners, with them away and nobody seeming to be looking after it, that's pretty disturbing.  The Chihuahua owners don't seem to be bothered, but they seem like stoners. 

Looks like a council job, we can't even put our dog in our back yard as he's just so fixated on this husky.

My gears have been grinded. 

Thats what you pay rates for

Lads i know this is wgmg but ... i have finally got a new job. So im celebrating with a j whilst sitting in a hamock. Just spreading some positive vibes

WGMG: Getting almost 2 years into a degree until you realise that you don't want to be doing it the rest of your life, then having to disappoint your family by telling them you want to change courses. 


Congrats m8

WGMG: Getting all my wisdom teeth out on Thursday. Not looking forward to it, hoping they are too brutal and it didn't set my trigeminal neuralgia off!

sometimes  it's ok not to be ok. 
Sometimes I need  it need help
Sometimes  it gets too much
Sometimes I'm overwhelmed
Wgmg: depression  is a bitch. 

You'll be surprised how common this is pal.

I read a stat a few years back which I never bothered to find again that said the average person changes entire career path every 7 years. Not just job - but entire career path. 

There is never a dead end - you decide what makes you happy & fulfilled and go chase that. Don't let anyone steer you in a direction you don't want to go in, and never feel stuck in something. 

2 years into something seems like a long time but in the grand scheme of things it is so small. Use your experiences in those years to further you for your next decision.

My biggest advice is talk to your friends and family about it. Don't bottle it up, don't just suck it up, etc. Talk to people about what you want, and how far your current path differs from where you want it to be. Talk to people. 

This entire topic is pretty close to my heart. Give me a yell if you're ever feeling unsupported. 

Upgrading to the NBN through Telstra and not off to a very good start, they sent out the wrong modem/router.